Trusting and Listening to Thyself.

 There's been this one recurring thought in my mind and it says that I should listen to myself more. There are so many voices I don't even know which one is my inner self's voice.

This journey of trusting someone/something you don't know or can't see rather thatim embarking is will be full of surprises I cannot wait to experience. It feels as though I have my hands tied behind my back. I'm being thrown into a pool and the one rule is don't drown. The only way to not drown is to not try to swim but let go till your feet reach the ground and only then push do you have to push yourself up to the surface. The level of surrendering that needs to be done is scarry because it's new. And honestly I've been swimming all my life, letting go and trying not to swim will be a challenge. 

We've been exposed to alot of things that can be seen and touched. That has turned us ignorant to things that aren't seen but can be heard.

Believing and trusting that certain voices or messages rather, that you hear might actually be your inner self/true self talking can be reaffirming and undermining to the self that you've always relief on. The flesh self is always contradicting the spirit self (inner self).
It's only undermining because as humans (emphasis on humans) we think we're the beginning and the ends, we think too highly of ourselves. We're blinded by the power of the unknown that we only tap into it when it suits us. Unveiling the veil of darkness and exposing myself to the light of the untapped universe and listening is nerve-wracking. Not solely because it's new but because you'll always experience the results after listening and implementing the advice.

TOPIC FOR ANOTHER DAY BUT LETS SIDETRACK A BIT: 

Another thing that I have discovered is that we give too much power to duality. It's either a situation is good or bad but lately I'm off the idea that nothing is good or bad. I'm practicing seeing everything as they are and not shoving them into the good or bad pile because I don't want to limit my perspective. As damaging as that can be, don't we become less and less inclined of taking risks and growing if we're constantly worried whether a decision is good or bad?? 

Nonetheless I know that I'm less inclined to listen to myself because by default myth that flesh knows better than spirit.
In some instances where the message is sudden and instant that's especially when that myth hold great power. It would be a smooth transition is there's trust  which isn't an easy thing to build especially when you also have to program you brain to think differently. Especially when Unlearning and Relearning needs to be applied.

Stepping into a new territory is always difficult and uncomfortable but it'll get some getting used to. Dear inner-self: I hear you, I'll listen more and trust you. 

Thanks for listening.