Awkward Moments

 What are awkward interactions but our own imposted perception on a situation that is so unnecessaruly intensified.

It's crazy how the mechanics in our brain and the emotions can communicate that a situation is awkward. Someone might say that an awkward moment happens solely because wrte afraid of being judged. But I think when you do something awkward or do something that you fundamental think someone is judging you for you're just actually not afraid of judgement. On the other hand you vould be scared of someone's judgement and still not do the think your brain and emotions deem as awkward. You wouldn't even put yourself anywhere close yo experiencing it. But I think once you experience an awkward moment you actually not afraid of judgement at all. Besides the consequent feeling that comes during and or after the awkward moment whi h I think is actually communicating that you're stretching yourself out of the threshold of what you perceive as awkward. 

You're slowly but surely teaching your body that it actually isn't that deep. That moment, the awkwardness. Yet to find out if I can actually avoid the feeling completely but I think putting myself in the line of fine whether intentionally or not I will eventually physically grow out of awkward moments. I think I can do anything and I hope to never allow my brain to communicate such intense feeling of a moment that isn't worth intensifying.

Because all its communicating is that something didn't land and were all aware of that but why are trying to expect ourself to say and or do something that'll land everything. Why do we think we can anticipate every single thing. Or that we're exempted from making mistakes. 

Jeez those expectations they become habits and I'm just trying to break out of this one. 

Be aware. You're too self aware. You gotta find the subtle line on the sand and learn not to cross it. Or maybe the line isn't subtle but nonexistent and the sand is just there to remind you taht you're human and we don't need to cross anything visible but rather that we should intentionally physically cross over those intensified moments that find us unprepared and aware. 

Those moment that stare at us straight in the eyes unshaken, unmoved. Moment that appear stronger than our will and bigger than those moments. 

It's all an illusion..... 

Ain't nothing that deep boo