Aud Dialogues

  There's been this one recurring thought in my mind and it says that I should listen to myself more. There are so many voices I don't even know which one is my inner self's voice. This journey of trusting someone/something you don't know or can't see rather thatim embarking is will be full of surprises I cannot wait to experience. It feels as though I have my hands tied behind my back. I'm being thrown into a pool and the one rule is don't drown. The only way to not drown is to not try to swim but let go till your feet reach the ground and only then  push do you have to push yourself up to the surface. The level of surrendering that needs to be done is scarry because it's new. And honestly I've been swimming all my life, letting go and trying not to swim will be a challenge.  We've been exposed to alot of things that can be  seen and touched. That has turned us ignorant to things that aren't seen but can be heard. Believing and trusting th

I think expecting our minds not to think of anything and calling that peace of mind is us being delusional. I don't know why all of a sudden I'm asking self what piece of mind is all of a sudden. I shouldn't be surprised cause it within brand. I think it's deeper than not having a single thought in your mind. The issue is we're defining a state of a faculty we have no idea how it works. Therefore peace of mind is really the awareness of the mind being aware of its surroundings and choosing not to yield to a force we have no clue of it's intelligence. I think the mind is an organ that is aware of itself and it's surroundings. All of that makes it a threat in every way. It's able to prevent you from doing, saying and even having certain things by virtue of you not being aware of how it works and thinking you are your mind.  I'd say don't listen but that's not realistic. Try listening less, the more you listen less the closer you are to not lis

S ince I've been writting the next natural question would be, is it something I enjoy doing or love doing? Don't know how this whole feelings work and how to identify which is which. Don't think it's as simple as if you're doing something and you're smiling while doing it that means you love it but if you're doing something and want to do it again that means you enjoy it. Those could be the potential definitions. But when you are constantly doing something it might not mean you enjoy doing it , you might be cognizant of the fact that you know how to do a certain thing. Anywho as I'm writting this I'm trying to also figure out why I still do it. So one of my first reasons for starting a blog was because I felt like there was a lot of topics that I thought needed to be discussed. Like I said before I was on Kovsie TV and they had a talk show with guests of broad knowledge. Then there was the reason that is still true which is because I think alot abou

I started volunteering at the Student Media at an organization called Kovsie Tv as an events Presenter, beginning of 2019. It is  honestly a platform for people to learn about themselves, a place where one can find their interests outside academics. There are alot of hats one can wear in media, besides presenting I realized that I could effortlessly create content. I am an overall creative full of ideas which some where implemented and there a lot more that needed to be implemented which unfortunately Corona put on hold in 2020. I had probably about a page full of content, topics that I felt like people within the student media space needed to discussed and suddenly the chance of that happening was canceled due to Corona. I think late last year was when I was exposed to the idea of blogging. I saw a few students opening their own blogs, read a few of their posts and I thought it was Fantastic and nothing much. Begining of the year 2021 as I was cleaning my box filled with diaries, note

  I recently came across a post by a female expressing how overated being a feminist is and how the biggest achievement for female feminists is to slaughter goats/cows in family functions, basically expressing her feelings on how ridiculous and a joke the concept of feminism is. And I say female feminists because males can also be feminists, not restricted to a specific gender. There has been on numerous occasions both men and women bashing feminists for being just that, which has created this negative connotation/stigma around female feminists and feminism as a whole. Most of the time I think because 1.people are not informed on what feminism is or 2.that people are seeking answers through the collective which in my opinion is wrong. First and foremost feminism means something different to different females. Now what I think made her view feminists in that light is that she probably heard a conversation or saw a post of a group of female feminists expressing their views and what being

 Today I'll be talking about a topic that might have some people feeling some typa way but I honestly I am just trying to make sense of the reality I find a few generations living in.To whomever reading this, I just hope you'll understand where I am comming from which isn't a place of believing that I'm omniscent or that I'm holier than though but rather see me as someone just expressing their concerns.Honestly, I can understand the idea of black people being okay with living in this fiction movie directed by white people that has made us believe and be okay with how our civilization only starts in slavery. I can because one,Ignorance is bliss" and trust me it is. Secondly, when has a black child ever been raised to question a teacher or an elder? which is exactly what white people have made themselves, to us black people and we've alowed them to for the longest time and we still are which is why they'll keep reitterating to us that our history began wh