Thee Unknown

Last week I wanted to write about a day in my life when I said something so absurd while holding a glass of red wine but I figured I'll do it when I get home. Lol that never happened. But I bumped into a short clip on the gram about a guy evaluating his relationship to the unknown. I just I had to stop the video mid way and finish entertaining that absurd thought I had last week. The absurd thought that I said outloud was "wherever the universe puts me is exactly where I need to be." I went on to say "wherever the universe places me, there must be something I need to learn."

 That wine must've been flowing just as my thoughts are as I'm writing this but that's essentially what I said.

It's funny and crazy cause we say we do (believe and trust the universe) as "affirmations" or that we're willing to rather, trust the universe and as a person who lowkey likes evidence I honestly didn't think I would confirm something I unknowingly subconsciously believe in/know. (Bare with me I don't know whether trusting the universe indicates a belief of fact)

"I trust the universe is guiding me towards my highest good. The universe supports my desires and has my back" we'd proclaim standing in front of the mirror. I mean everything is a reflection of us. But also maybe standing in the front of a mirror is another way to intentionally communicate with your subconscious. Because we are essentially speaking things into existence to things that came into existence. Maybe nature is the purest form of someone else's/my manifestation thus making it the strongest energy force to manifest and speak things into existence. Hopefully we'll talk about that on the next episode of I love my brain!

It's crazy how the brain subconsciously has memories full of evidence of the things you know to be true and or believed in that came to fruition that the conscious mind isn't 1. fully aware of and or 2. cannot comprehend or just isn't willing to comprehend. Because thought can be overpowering sometimes, and it then continously replays itself in different scenarios. It's very self centered and I guess it does take time for it to begin entertaining thought that are outside the replays. I think the effects of overthinking is that it'll you longer to reach enlightenment regardless of how many time the subconscioustries communicating with you. Enlightenment in this case is an epiphany when the subconscious meet the conscious. I may or may not be on to something.

I didn't think I trusted the universe to that point maybe I didn't trust myself to that point too. 

Sooo the long overdue context: This year is my second year overseas.

Before moving abroad I had done zero research, all I knew was the country I want to live in. And then went on to imagine the kind of place I'd live in and the things I'd be doing. Most people were prepared. They obviously went through a rabbit hole of good and bad reviews. They found out which school were blacklisted those sort of things. I never thought of doing research with both contracts because as I've come to realize subconsciously I guess I figured I'll be where I need to be.

While briefly listening to that guy talk about his relationship to the unknown unknown. It instantly made me think of mine and I must say that have a healthy relationship to the unknown and I love that about me self (excuse the barnsley accent) 

It made me think of a line I always say which is "I always say I'm constantly running towards danger" maybe its not dangerous that I'm running towards but myself.